TRYING is TIRING.
I think even the phrase ‘Try and try until you succeed’ is getting tired. LOL! But that motto is so old, I think it’s already have arthritis and stuffs.
Okay! I'll stop with humourless jokes now so you can keep reading.
No matter how old that phrase is, its meaning doesn’t change. It’s still true today, even if you practice it as your motto or not. For others, this motto works. But really, how can we get the strength and motivation to keep trying even after failing. To try and try and try until we succeed? And how many times should we try before we get IT, whatever the IT is in your life.
Sadly, I don’t have the answer to the last. But I can share something that motivated me to keep trying.
5 Simon answered, “Master, we’ve worked hard all night and haven’t caught anything. But because you say so, I will let down the nets.”
I’ll give you a short version of that particular biblical story. Simon(Peter) was a fisherman and apparently he, along with his companions, had been fishing all night but didn’t catch a single fish. Jesus then approached them and told them to launch their nets again in the water. And so Peter did and miraculously, when he and his companions pulled up the net again, it was overflowing with fishes. It was so heavy, they needed to call other fishermen for help.
Now, did you catch what they did? (And see what I did there? Catch? hehe)
People, they tried again. And surprise, they succeeded.
This is a revelation to me. This story that I used to see as a story of miracle due to obedience has now a different meaning to me and arouses questions I don’t usually ask myself. What if every time we stop trying, we’re actually just one try away from victory? And what if the next try we should’ve taken was already our ‘IT’?
But as I said, trying is tiring. Not only physically but emotionally and mentally. Do you ever ask yourself ‘What’s the point?’, what’s the point of trying again if I’m gonna fail anyway, like I did a thousand times before.
I did. As an aspiring writer, I have plenty of WIPs (Work-in-process or progress). I have written like hundred of unfinished novels ever since I was a kid and started dreaming to be a writer. Usually, I don’t finish a novel simply because I lose my enthusiasm writing it. Just suddenly, the story that I originally thought was the best idea ever, is now senseless. The story just feel like it doesn’t make sense anymore, so I stop.
I stop without even asking myself some “What ifs”. I mean ‘What if This novel is my Big break?’ or ‘What if THIS is the next bestseller?’ (LOL, I’m dreaming.)
Anyway, I realize that If I don’t find any sense in whatever I do, it’s easier to stop. I’m not talking just about writing. This is true in everything in my life.
Fishing was Simon Peter’s passion, as is writing to me. Peter tried doing again the thing he just failed at. At something he was good at but failed anyway. It doesn’t matter how good we are at something, we’ll fail at some point. Welcome to life, guys. But that doesn’t mean it’s not worth another try.
And earlier this year, as I revisit my old WIPS, this thing became true to me. See, among those WIPs, I found a big fat fish. It was such a catch, I’m now using most of my time cooking it. I’m still cooking it. I was totally blown away. This particular WIP was too old, I’m surprised I even have a copy of it. What if I didn’t give up on it before? Maybe it’s a published book now. And to think I almost give up writing and everything about it.
Now, I know it’s not published yet. But the point is The dream is still alive. We only really fail when we quit. And I know if I don’t try throwing my nets again just because I didn’t catch a thing the first time I did, I’ll never catch any fish at all. And I really love writing so much, I know my life will never be complete without it. It’s my second nature so I won’t be giving up on it.
From now on, every time I get weary or disappointed, because it seems not working out and looks like what I’m aiming will never happen, I do not stop trying again. Instead, I just pause, take a rest, and then try again.
And maybe, you’re thinking someone(Jesus) told Simon to try again, and no one’s encouraging you to try again. You can’t even get any moral support from anyone. Well, I guess, that’s why I’m here. Maybe it’s no accident you’re reading this. Whatever that IT that you failed at but have always wanted to, maybe it’s time to give your best at it again.
You’ll never know unless you try again.
Keep trying. Keep moving. Keep dreaming. And keep living.
I know, who am I to tell you what to do? But I want to thank you for reading this.
God Bless You All.